I am just suffering these past few days.
((Gemmy)) is there anything we can do to help?
Y'know surviving infidelity requires a certain rawness. The kind that strips you down to whatever is actually real in the moment. You are trying to make sense of something that refuses to make sense. It's all a mind fuck. The kind of hurt that doesn’t stay in one place but keeps shifting, keeps ambushing you, keeps rewriting itself every time you think you’ve finally pinned it down. You're just trying to it survive, man.
And when I look at what you’ve been through, not just the betrayal, but the cruelty wrapped around it, that kind of pain doesn’t sit quietly. I can almost feel that burning in your chest.
And I’ll be honest, your honesty, your openness, your willingness to speak from the wound it pulls on all of our heartstrings. It’s pulling on mine. Reading your pain has stirred a level of remorse in me I haven’t felt in years. The kind that makes you sit with the weight of what betrayal actually does to a human being. I haven't talked to or seen my exBH in ages, and I have this wild want to reach out to him and tell him how deeply sorry I am all over again.
But this isn’t about me, it’s about you, and the fact that you’re still standing in the middle of something that would break a lot of people. I want kindness for you. I want healing for you, with or without your WW. I want you to have a life where this isn’t the thing that defines your days anymore. And until you get there, we’re here.
